I feel sad today. I stood in the bathroom mirror, nekid as the day I was born, and I cried. I cried because I have let myself down, and I feel like I have let everyone else down. I hated what I saw, and I can't get past it. I am so far from what I used to be even 3 years ago. How can so much change in such a short amount of time? Excuse me for having a gigantic head, but it was only a year or two ago I still got compliments. I noticed males looking at me and now and then I got a "oh you look nice today". All that has stopped. Since then I have piled on 15 kilos, 15 fucking kilos. I look tired and worn out. Generally, this is not a good look and I am aware of it and the proof is in the pudding. No one batts and eyelid. I sound like the biggest selfish shallow person but it's a hard blow when something changes for the negative. I am not entirely sure how I have gained 15 kilos, I eat like a saint most of the time, and excersise a fair bit. I drink wine but I have cut that back too. Yet not one single gram has been lost. I tell you what, it's freaking hard to keep going and trying to loose weight when week after week there is no diffrence on the scales despite the changes I have made. What the fuck is wrong with me? Makes me feel like there is no point, I may aswell eat all the crap I want, because not eating it is doing sweet bugger all.
I hate being in a funk!!
On another note.........the broccoli we planted a while back has started making little baby broccoli's, I was so excited when I noticed it, such a good feeling to see the things you planted actually doing what it's meant to do LOL
Yesterday I planted some more spinache, beetroot and snowpeas. We don't really use the snowpeas but the kids absolutley LOVE going out there and picking them off the vine, they gobble them up so fast, great way to get the vegies into their diet ; )
